Please excuse any spelling and grammar errors. I write quickly and it is enjoyable because I am not stressing about perfection! Real diary pages:
I want to learn calligraphy. So when I did this for my first thought was that the calligraphy is awful. Then I reminded myself that I want to learn it, which means I don't know how to do it. Instantly I accepted it. I really like the doodles that I made to. The book is from Cocoa Daisy, mini Dori. The sticker quote is from The Reset Girl listers gotta list daily-monthly prompts.
I am just thinking about how so many of you have seen me evolve on this page already. I was writing in my journal and I wrote I want "to use the good stuff." I'm sure it sounds awful but one of the thoughts that I had (when I didn't know how long I had) was how I had worked so hard to have nice things and yet I haven't enjoyed them. Use the nice china and soap, you know?!
As I was reminiscing tonight it made me think about all the cosmetics that I have including some unopened unused... the hoarding like so many of us cosmetic junkies do! I can tell you what's in the cupboards, what's on what self, the inventory is in my mind.
The thing that struck me the most tonight was how I know I have some butt cream in there; you know what I mean, the one that claims anti-cellulite and firming and lifting and shrinking and all of that. I've had it for over year and not even opened it yet. I thought to myself at what age do you know longer care? Not from a sense of not caring for yourself but rather exactly that: a sense of caring for yourself; being good enough with the stretch marks and the cellulite.
I realize that I want to keep my skin healthy, yes, and I want to take care of it so that there is some aging gracefully, for sure. But what was different as I reflected was I realized I was completely missing the desire for perfection which I have sought for as long as I can remember.
My health really was a life changing pivotal moment for me. Now the idea of growing old and wrinkly in a life well lived is the most exciting compelling moving ...dream!
Thank you for your time spent reading this in a 3 second attention span world. ~ce
Feb.14, 2016 FB
You can never predict what's going to happen so it's a waste of time preparing for every possible outcome. There's no point worrying about things that may not happen.
Everyone starts every adventure not knowing, and definitely not "ready" for it. We can't be ready for life; we can only become better people by taking action and moving forward.
What is needed will reveal its self in time. We will rise to meet the challenges as they come.
Everyone starts every adventure not knowing, and definitely not "ready" for it. We can't be ready for life; we can only become better people by taking action and moving forward.
What is needed will reveal its self in time. We will rise to meet the challenges as they come.
My little helper...
I have been writing by hand and really like the pen on paper vs the computer, hope you don't mind...
A little humour for you ;) ^
I wrote this back in August and just had the guts to post a bunch of diary pages now in mid October!